active unbaptised publisher here.you?
(though i already know the answer for some people).
I have been inactive since September 2009, Elders are hunting me at the moment since they are mad I wouldn't sign a paper DAing myself & they think they have evidence now to DF me- but I am trying to avoid as long as possible
Born in 1978, baptized in 1993, finally me in 2009
i first came on this site around the time we were waiting the my daughters abuser to face justice in crown court , we got no justice (due to lack of evidence) but his other victims had a very small section of the abuse they suffered legally recognised , due to a deal being done with the defence , so we waited 20 months to give evidence just to be dropped at the last minute for a "deal" my by now ex best friend decided to stand by the child rapist !as did some of his family despite him being a disfellowshipped person (he was not disfellowshipped for child abuse ) and they are all jws !
isold my house and left the town i once loved as i couldnt bare to be in the same town as him when he left prison (he did 18 months of a 3 year sentence ) and see his supportive family knocking on doors taliking of truth made me feel like screaming at them "what about my poor girl , wheres your support for her , you hypocrites "my daughter is still very much affected by what happened to her age 13 , sexual, physical and mental abuse over months and months .
but i also have a 6 year old girl who was only 20 months old when i found out and reported the abuse to the police , and the long process started , for the next 20 moths i could think of nothing but giving evidence in court and trying to support my girl who was also terrified of that , my little one was 3 and a half when he was sentenced and i looked back and realised i had hardley taken any notice of her since i found out about my other girls abuse , i had missed out on so much of her best times , learning new words etc , i was too preoccupied .
Best wishes to your and your family for peace and love this summer and beyond
love,
CHG
we were always told not to throw away literature, so just what did we do with it all?
i know that i would sneak it into the bin for recycling quite regularly.
my parents kept all the magazines for over 20 years in ritz boxes in a cupboard, they all went yellow and smelt wierd.
I used to pile them in the back of my closet & when the pile got to be as tall as me I would sneak into work and shred them in the industrial shreder- I was so afraid someone would see me.
I saw a big pile in the back of my closet a few months back & I scooped them up and slammed them in the dumpster with glee!
I like the birdcage liner idea....
i haven't been on the board for a while, but i thought you'd dig this.. it was taped last week at a reading from my novel.
the first part is about the hot girls at assemblies and how we'd sit through doom and gloom talks.
part 2 is a scene where gabe is found out for having a girlfriend.. http://vimeo.com/12066637.
My BF and I watched it- I laughed because I remember those experiences of wearing the new Frocks (yes, with nylons) doing your hair and makeup just so- and circling around the hall ways of the convention centers (in my case, the Pontiac Silverdome in Detroit- three levels of hallways to walk endlessly) looking at all the single brothers, and no one would flirt with me
My BF has never been a witness- so I had to describe more details about that, he LOL'd- but shook his head in discust when you related your experience holding hands with a girl and your father asserting that your actions could affect his position as an elder-
No freewill as a jdub, your decisions affect everyone, so don't give Jehovah a "bad name"
We had one question....did camile give that note to her mom, who in turn gave it to your parents- how did they get your note???
i know, i know... some of ya'll are gettin' sick of this "generation" thing... .
but for whatever reason, i had not seen this actual quote from the dc talk (that or had not paid much attention to it until now).
seeing it in print really brought home how desparate they are to try to hang on to 1914 in whatever way they can.
Lol on the "Seriously" (SNL), WTF!! I tried explaining this controversy of the generations teaching to my BF (never a JW) & he just looked at me with a glazed look, as if saying...I have no idea what the hell you're even trying to tell me-
You are all right about those still in, they will lap up all the new "light", vomit it back out, excitedly chattering about how priveleged they are to receive this "light getting brighter and brighter" bullshit, they will regurgitate it back out in WT study comments...patting themselves on the back on how smart they are....
oye i am getting red thinking about it
i have been posting here and there for a few weeks but never introduced myself.
i will do that now because i really am in bad shape and in need of someone to listen.. i was raised in new york in the projects during the crack boom in the 80's.
my dad was an abusive drunk non believer and my mom dragged us to meetings.
Welcome Friggin
You sound very lost & I wish you would get some professional help, I left the organization about nine months ago now & realize that I cannot be an agonstic or atheist because I believe there is a God and He does care about what I do to worship Him. I pray everyday to be reconciled to Him someday, but the answers as to where to go for worship are not even close to being clear for me now. I think it will take a long time to find a place where I am comfortable worshipping- same for you....
I wish for you to find some peace, you have been through so much, hang in there and please keep posting your thoughts~
CHG
the topic says it all.
i am frustrated and dumbfounded.
i understand that she misses the social activity with her "friends" but we have been "very" busy socially the last several months with new friends and she's been having a great time.
Everyone has already said what I was thinking, I hope you can use this summer to get closer as a couple-maybe some nice cookouts at the beach-just the two of you??? I always hated the cong. get-togethers & do better in smaller social settings, I love a nice outdoor activity for two like tennis, I liked the art class suggestion.
It takes time to make friends, I really havent much either, but I have a hard time with that sort of thing- I hope she will come to her senses in time
Good Luck!
CHG
i mailed my letter of disassociation three months ago.
no response.
i saw a friend(was once?
Congrats, I hope I can have your attitude if/when the elders decide to X-me out via text message too
Now get busy living, keep posting on your new life experiences!
CHG
i guess i am used to hearing the word "miserable" now with current jw's.. i have spoken to four within a week who all claim their existance with the wtbts is an unfulfilling one.. i had a friend many years ago who remains on the 'fringes' of the congregation.
yet, now i am out whenever he gets the chance he tries to preach to me.
yet, in the same breath he states how he enjoys going nightclubbing and holidays - with excessive amounts of alcohol (with all current jw's) and whilst away from the watchful eye of their parents, often meet (i won't say 'worldly' as that is a jw term - but) women who do not share the same beliefs that they claim to have yet they hold far much more in common then what they would care to know.
When I was telling my family that I was miserable, & wasnt going to meetings anymore, my cousin told me how unhappy she was in life and marriage- and she said to me "none of us in Jeh's org are happy, not until the new system"- WTF!!
My sister told me how unhappy she was with life too when I said the same thing
My mom has never been happy
I started noticing a pattern here & they wanted me to stay...why????
when they announced disfellowshipping of certain individuals in your congregation?
were you shocked?
tell me about it.
I would always tense up when they would call an elder up after the announcements were over, and if he had a somber look on his face, and then my chest would hurt if they started to say.."this is to inform the congregation"...
Always would never listen to the rest of the meeting, & then there was always crying afterward & uncomfortableness as we went up to hug the family, heartbreaking...
I was rarely shocked though at who it was, you could usually see some signs that they were "spritually weak"...
Wonder what they will say bout me....
